Same guy different day

Apprently Gen sticks to things that are easy for her. (Real life might not be as easy as I'd like but guess I dont really have a choice but to stick to it.) Too much work makes my head hurt. Let's see where was I... oh ya complaining bout nobody sloving me. Rofl. I got a bf now. Yayaya I was mad at him but I got over it. Gave me a chance. He's a great person. Prolly one the best guy friends I have in sl. Don't quite know bout slove yet. I'm not one to just Jump to that. SOME of us know what that is... others just jump and jump and jump. You know what I mean by jumpers. Hmmm, you know that friend that has a bf for like 2days, the guy she just barely met... and she talkin bout how much she in sloooove wit the dude. Make you wanna just slap the hell outta her. Thinkin to yourself like you just met, how can you be talking about how much you in slove. Shaking your head the hole time, patting her back a week later (tellin her in your head I told your ass it was too soon.) At least get to know the person 1st or be friends or something dang! I'm not talkin no 1 or 2 weeks neither... let try some months at least before yall even start dating. Know something bout that person. Know what they want from you. Hell, lets try knowing what they actually wanna get from a relationship. Do they know the rules of wooage? Do they just wanna bone? How bout...do they wanna go RL with you? Do they want a family, prim pregnancy, sl kids? Junk like that. Gawd do I have to break it down for you that much. LOL. I know I know, I'm gettin all into detail and mess. I know what I want... question is do you know?
Had my small amount of drama in sl here and there. Nothing out the norm. HAHAHA sl is never normal. This is the moment when you insert a pfft here. Its more been OPP (other peoples problems) that I been handed. It all works out. You find who's there for you. Who's who, what's what typa mess. Some go crazy some just brush it off and slife goes on either way. Makes you wanna slap um sometimes and be like HELLOOOO WAKE THE HELL UP! LOL, ya I said it.
On a RL note: the pregnancy been kickin my ass. Aside from the weight droping takin me for loops and junk. I just been hella tired. Only 9weeks left! Got me all happy bout that though. Thank gawd! Offically seperated, kinda sucks some what.Part of me is happy part of me wished it coulda worked but its a natural feeling that I'm sure ill get over. Over all I'm content with where I am right now. Eatin everything that don't make me sick.
Welp, thats me for the night... I'll be updating and uploading. Lots to do get meh back on top lol. Def will be blogging more. ooh ooh special thanks to mah jels for the wooage-ness it really helps the non-relationship types know what the hell they gotta do to keep the relationship from being boring. HAHA like I got a prob there. I'm not mentioning any names *cough* you know who you are. Muaws.

Been there Tried that

Lately this lil bummble bee has been doing the most... between trying to collectivly keep my cool, raise a 2yr old and being pregnate for like ever, I'm just going plain insaine. Sl has been my refuge lately. Keepin me from pulling my hair out. Jellybean tells me about this swanky college in sl she's joined and maan I so want to. Hell, even sent in an application last night. Yet, I still havent herd jack from them.
On another note, I've been havin my ups and downs lately. Relationship wise that is. I liked a guy. Had me really inspired it was a lot for me to even take that step with a friend but ended up right back in the friendzone again. Seems to be the place Imma end up staying for a while. LOL. Stupid friendzone >.< so I did some pics and poetry to vent...

THE GODDESS

The goddess inside me tells me that I need someone powerful by my side
Someone who understands there’s more depth wielded in my self-comfort
Someone who's dependent on the things we both need it LOVE, Friendship and Honesty
A person who I can see myself waiting for
Every goddess has a need, a want, a reaction even
The feeling that create the spark of life inside us driving us to search... wait...
Dust ourselves of and search again
Yet when that goddess takes over and makes us stop looking and see what’s right in front of us
We know in that moment what we want...... LOVE...
The goddess inside me smacked the shit outta me one day
Told me to stop…Stop searching…Start listening
Paying attention to what emotion had mustered inside of me all along
The goddess inside me wants someone like you by her side LOVE.

Thoughts of the Girl Nextdoor

When you let your gaurd down even for a split second things creep in like the slightest hint of feeling love can take you for the ride of ur life and drop you off in the middle of nowhere. You sit there trying to play it cool until the person
You, Me, Us so hard to suppose, consider… believe drives off, your heart (that was ripped from your chest) in one hand the love you knew would never be again in the other hand, a smerk on their face. Your sudden defeat overwhelms you when you think you've collectivly handle the worst. Playing it smart just wasn't enough. That wall they spoke of should have never been torn down. Sidetracked you see everything you wanted snatched from your very grasp. Yet still you go on with a smile. Some small hope you givein to only to watch it washed away soft yet sweet bitter kisses left on your lips. A cutting tongue that was sharper then any knife that would graze your skin. Do u remain just friends or let go of whatever lil actuality could have been consieved there. It would have been better to be given a chance and find out it didnt then not one at all.

I'm completly content at this moment with where I am. On a lighter note though I got accepted to KSU. HOW SPECTACULAR IS THAT! MAMA IMMA GENIOUS! lol.
smoochiepoos gotta get my tush there and see whats up....

Wowzers Its been Oh So long!

Shes back & Ready to kick it into blogging overdrive... Summer is almost here. Let the drama begin. ROFL-oppters. Oh come on you know good darn well you know what I'm talking about. Theres a slew of people that play sl. I dont have to tell ya how hard it is to avoid summer drama. The h*es, golddiggers, nasties and what ever else you'll need some Noobaway as well. LOL. It has been sooo long since I been on blogger.com its rediculous. A while back I had Luckyb as my blog but I killed it when I started writing my book (which I gave up on that mess). All people want nowadays is sex and sex no culture no nothing just romance novels. Blah! This is going to be just SL for me. If ya dont know what SL is.... let me run it down for yas. If you love shopping...might be a thing for ya. If you love meeting new people... def for you. If you can handle a little bit of drama here and there once you get settled in... its good for you. SOooO...then do this
1) go to www.secondlife.com
2) get a free account
3) prepare for the longest week of your life (getting to know people is the key)

I only ask if you can handle drama because no matter what you do... if real people are involved theres going to be drama damn it. Yup, I said it D-R-A-M-A. It can be avoided but sometimes it can't. Eh...whats a girl ta do.